I'm either stupid or I'm an idiot.
I'm tired, my body's begging for extra sleep and I'm taking extra jobs.
Filling up my schedule with many duties so I wouldn't have time for thinking about my,life and problems.
well, it was working for a few days but now I'm tired all the time and things I don't wanna think about are attacking me from every possible side.
Can't deal with my life now, it's just too much.

I know that people think I'm loud, always nice and helpful, chatterbox.
Sometimes I haven't got enough strength to be Carol so I fake.
Fake smiles, being nice.
I'm just tired with trying and doing what I do.
It's too much.