I spoke to Serena, she's really down now. She lost a friend few weeks ago and she lost herself for  a guy who's not noticing her. She was my 'looking-upto' model. She was strong, independent and mature. She's nothing alike that girl I met months ago. She sent me a link to the quote -> Why is it so hard to get over someone that never even loved you? Why is it no one understands your pain? Why is they never understand that when we say I'm Fine it's always a lie? Why is it we've been telling people I'm fine for so long they never even see behind the masks we wear? We get pushed to the limit, we break and we do the same thing over and over again and they still never figure it out. My only question is, Why?

I don't know what more can I do for her. She's in pieces and I feel like I'm an useless friend :(


music changes everything

whenever I'm feeling down or happy music's there with me. Making me feel positive about everything.
This week in my top 10 are....

I've changed. a lot.
and now I feel like a fallen angel.
and it feels so good....


looking back....

This year had a good start, I was happy, everything looked good and perspectives were amazing and I still feel like it's gonna be my year, a year when impossible is possible and I'm finding my way.
Well, last few weeks were hard and few things changed. Maybe I've changed, a little bit.
It's a good change though.
The summer break will be a big test what I'm capable of and am I ready for next big steps. I hope I am as my beautiful domino decided to fall and I had to repair few things. Summer plans were smashed by reality but I'm not going to surrender just because of few little failures the universe sent on me.
I'm coming back stronger and hungry. The hunger of success is big.
Hope my body is ready for changes 'cause my soul is not going to fail this time.

C xxxx


yeah I know,
I haven't been here for a while, but there was a factual to be made, new series of \eskay today, all the deadlines and assessments.
but I'm back and I've got a song for ya.
and I'm gonna be here during the summer ;)
so stick around. ;)